please i'm not delusional. As we are both big Red Velvet fans I was like talking about seeing them live/in concert (unlikely) he said "We could go together" does that mean anything or am I just crazy. He's an extremely dry, honest, and quiet person, but in the most funny way possible. I found his instagram and I messaged him some random shit like "[coworker's name whom he has blocked on insta] misses you." Don't think he uses instagram though so he didn't respond or see it which lowkey makes it funnier. I just wanna be friends with him...at least.
This week I finally caved and bought the NCT WISH WICHU plush. I got it with the album and sion photocard! I bought it off of Mercari Japan through buyee. This is my first time using it so lowkey might've done it wrong we'll see. Also my Hirono doll is being delivered today! I was able to get my hands on it a few weeks ago. The price was a little crazy, but as a Hirono collector like i'm too far gone at this point idgaf.
Getting major fomo looking at all my friends and mutuals Japan trip posts/stories...also can't believe that school is starting because what do you mean summer is ending kms. ANYWAYS...my mom has been going through medical stuff the whole summer. It really got to me the past few months which is probably why i've been so depressed lol. I actually thought she was going to die at one point, but she's chilling now. She's lost a bunch of weight and her movements seem slow right now. it worries me, although it's probably just from recovering over all the surgery. Listening to music has become to highlight of my days. It helps me get through hard times and feelings. I think I wanna get my haircut super short again soon. I've always had medium length hair actually because I look too much like a kid when it's super short. But I keep seeing cute short hairstyles online so...I wanna chop it I swear I'll pull it off this time.
You also may have noticed that this blog layout is new! In my opinion the blog/diary page is the hardest to make. For me it's personal...but also I'm posting it online so it's for anyone to see so I wanna have it look a certain way? I'll see how long I can like this layout...maybe it will be the one lol. That's all of what I want to write. Bye bye