Well...here we are. There's a lot of things I could write about so i'll do that. btw happy Asian people and Pacific Islander month. I heart Asians. To the few other Asians on Neocities i'm gonna touch you.
Only have three weeks until graduation! While i'm relieved, there's this pain in my chest whenever I think about it. It will either be fine or I will take or do something drastic to myself. I've already decided on a college nearby, but still what will I be doing there? I know this is a common feeling, but when all the people around me are so sure of their futures already having whole ass career plans I feel like a loser. Two of my friends are going to Ohio state and University of Washington respectively. The thought of them leaving makes me sad, but I try not to let it get to me because I want to support them. Fun fact I should be at prom right now. I got ready and everything, but then I feel asleep and woke up just now so...oh well. Only one person would've noticed I wasn't there tbh #dateless.
Feeling major FOMO right now too. Tell me why everyone that I know and their mama is going to Japan over the summer? Even friends of my friends like what. When my friend who lives in Taiwan during the summer mentioned 'oh i'm going to Japan too' I screamed what the hell. I'm going to force her to buy me shit (i will give her my money and ask nicely). Lowkey next year I want to go so i've been doing a bit of reasearch recently. Going to the Ghibli theme park (this would fix me) is a must and also they're building a Chiikawaland?! Unfortunately an overseas trip is the last thing my bank account needs. Also I don't have anyone right now I could ask to go with me.
This week i've been sick and missing school. To pass time I went a little crazy on Depop and Mercari. Some things are coming in the mail soon so stay tuned for a review/haul/finished fashion page! Btw yesterday (or today?) I finished my food page so check that out if you haven't already.
Been listening to the soundtrack for Monster (2023) on repeat. My friends and I plan to watch it again together. When I first watched Monster it was sad, but I was like 'oh that wastn't that bad' I fear now I will not survive a second time. Hirokazu Koreeda you are evil.
I plan on starting a youtube channel or something like that to post collection videos. I want to share/make other social medias of mine, but i'm too shy. Making more friends online (and in general) is a goal of mine this year! Neocities is really the only place feel most comfortable like this. Mostly cause i'm talking to myself haha. The only other place i'm active is my Instagram which is too personal to share...if I made an alt account would that be interesting? would anyone follow that? Ughhh.
I feel like shit this week. I want to sleep for a loooooooooooooooong time...it's 11:19 PM and raining.